Not a Writer but a Dreamer !!

I always thought I am good at my job, at least that’s what I had liked to believe. 

But as usual during my year end reviews I got to know I would not make it to the next level this year. That’s when I thought, well looks like the consulting world is not giving me the feeling of accomplishment any more, making me feel more mediocre. Trust me nobody likes being average, and in their mind of minds they like to believe that they are great at something. I invested 10 years of my life in this job and I know I can’t give up one fine day but I am not being myself anymore, it was talking away my belief that I can make an impact too, I have it in me to do something great which would not make me feel so mediocre anymore. So, what else can I do? What do I really dream of doing? Maybe writing? But I am not a writer and never have really written much, counting my school essays and short stories but I always had a dream. That I will be a writer one day, I wasn’t entirely sure if anyone would ever read my book even but I always felt the very urge to pen down my thoughts which I felt got burned down under my busy consulting life. My thoughts got trapped in the business world and stopped flying. But when I was writing, I did not feel bad that no one was reading this nor there was any applaud still writing it out gave me lot of happiness. That’s when I realized that this time it was my dream so happiness was natural. I know we always say let’s follow our dreams and do what you are good at, but look I understand to survive and maintain a lifestyle people need to keep their daily jobs and love them even. But it is important sometimes to let your dreams fly and once in a while indulge in what you really like to do. And it can be even the simplest of the stuff, need not be anything fancy and need not be to earn money or please others, just whatever makes you reach your inner self and not losing your inner soul.

Not everyone in this world is lucky to pursue their dream and make it a career choice. There can be multiple reasons for that, it maybe was your dream but you might have been average in that or did not chase it hard enough or did not get the right opportunities or maybe never was destined for it. But it still was your dream and you still wake up thinking that you are a writer. And one day you just write about how being not a writer dream changed you forever.